A new journal title,,

Will probably leave

2008-11-02T22:46:10Z

For some reason, I can never seem to keep up with blogs. I can if I'm on the site a lot, but then it has to be a site like deviantART or something of the sort (Facebook, Myspace, etc.) for me to keep up and update mine. Because of this, I haven't been on here lately, so I'll probably just delete this account like I have done to my past 2 accounts on this site. If any of you have a facebook, myspace, or deviantart, leave a comment so I can keep in touch.

FYI, my dad has blocked dA for some reason, so I won't be able to update unless I'm at my mom's, do until I get the site unbanned, there won't be too much updates on that one either. Damn father...

Damn Computer...

2008-09-26T00:16:38Z

I've got no plans and too much time.
-Conor Oberst (We Are Nowhere and It's Now)

I have homework, but I always put it off until late. I really need to do something about that.

I'm thinking of scanning my computer with the System Recovery thing, and then recovering my computer. Having to restart my computer multiple times to get it to run right instead of freezing up, always getting real real slow on dA, can't really post or send messages too easily... this is really getting to be a pain in the ass.

I need to do more stuff or find more hobbies. I know I do stuff each day, but they seem to escape me a lot. ....I'll begin posting better blogs sometime within the next month. Promise.

-ghlewis

Quick Post

2008-09-17T14:44:25Z

I'm at school right now. Since the computer I'm on doesn't have PowerPoint for some reason, I e-mailed myself the link that I needed to make a PowerPoint on so I can do it at home, since it's not due today. Lucky.

My computer keeps messing up. It has a hard time completely displaying pages of deviantART (have to keep Refreshing sometimes), and at times, it won't let me post here. I need to defrag it or something. Maybe there's another virus on my computer? ...seems unlikely, but...

Well, I got to go. Teacher is coming by, and class is almost over. I'll try to post some more later. Bye.

-ghlewis

Fucking Computer...

2008-09-01T02:11:36Z

Okay, so, I'm not sure if it's a virus or what, but, I downloaded Firefox 3.0.1 yesterday or the day before, and after putting on some addons (going to put on a new appearance Sept. 3), it's starting to lag a little sometimes, full pages aren't loading up, and this damn McAfee is starting to block (or was, anyway) some stuff that shouldn't even be blocked (various stuff on deviantART, one or two of my own pics on myspace, etc.). Now, after putting a Limited account for me on our computer here, and cleaning the computer of the Trojan that was on it, I thought that there would be no more problems, but I can't even check my messages on deviantART, I can't seem to get some of my Yahoo! e-mails to load up all the way, I couldn't see my own blog, and it took me 2 Refreshes to be able to type in this text box. I'm doing another scan to see what's up. ...It's scanned 332 files so far, and it's already detected something. it's probably just that PUPbx.something or whatever. It's of no real threat, from what the last scan said. Hopefully, it's just that Firefox just has some bugs since it's a new version, but when I tried loading a page on Internet Explorer, it loaded up more of my messages on deviantART, but I still couldn't see any of my messages. Fucking computer.

I'm probably going to just listen to music and read a book for the rest of the night. Maybe check out some tabs online.

-ghlewis

2 Girls 1 Cup

2008-08-05T19:53:11Z

Okay, so I've been to a lot of shock sites and have watch a few banned and exploitation films. I've been to snuffx.com. I've watched Cannibal Holocaust. I've seen the Mr. Hands video, and didn't think anything of it. I'm okay with experimentation, and only have a few things that I'm not willing to try. So yeah, not too much phases me.

I've never seen the 2 Girls 1 Cup video before. I've heard about it, and have heard about Scat videos. I know that, even though there are actresses willing to participate in Scat videos, not too many of them are willing to eat shit, so the people making the film with substitute the shit they are eating with something like Ice Cream, Chocolate, or something of the sort.

Well, I finally watched the 2 Girls 1 Cup video. At first, it was nothing, really. After getting a little more into it, I looked at what they were eating, and knew that they couldn't make Ice Cream or Chocolate look that much like shit. They even threw up in the video, in an erotic sort of way. The funny thing was, even though I was completely disgusted and horrified, I couldn't click out of the screen. I felt like throwing up, grabbing onto my throat, and covering my mouth, all at the same time. I held back my nausea and covered my mouth with both hands while watching it. It was completely disgusting.

I can see why people are into stuff like BDSM and the like. Hell, as I said, I'm fine with experimenting. I can see why people would like different types of stuff, even if they are a little extreme. I know of stuff that most people don't when it comes to that field. But to get off on stuff like scat... I just can't understand that. Is it the smell and texture, or is the fact that it came out of the person you love, the fact that it's a part of them getting you off? I just can't understand it. I really can't.

Now if you'll excuse me, I'm gonna go gouge my eyes out and pour an entire gallon of Bleach into them. Have a nice day.

-ghlewis

Let The Flame Wars Commence!!!

2008-07-31T02:49:16Z

      Okay, so I've been posting around The Final Fantasy Forums (http://www.thefinalfantasy.com/forums/) for a while now, and so far, I've gotten 3 comments under my Reputation thingy (not entirely sure how it works, but apparently, people can leave comments in that area), so my reputation has gone from 0% to 40%, all in one day. Two of them were from this Poetry thread, and the other was for someone kind of applauding me for talking back to this guy who bad-mouthed me on this Abortion thread I entered into in the Intelligent Discussion thread (http://www.thefinalfantasy.com/forums/intellectual-discussion/58982-abortion-your-views.html) (I'm in the fourth and fifth page, and go by the username Lilium. You should be able to tell who it is that I'm flaming with).
      Now, he did see some faults in my posts, and I talked back, and apologized for some mean remarks and for using some wording that I thought was accurate at the time. Well, it seems as though there was even MORE wrong wording and such than there was in my previous post. Well, I talked right back, and caught him on some faulty logic and for twisting my words around in some ways. Now, I did apologize for a few things, since I view myself as the gentlemen in this situation, but, along with learning some faults in my wording and logic, I also talked a little mean to him. This is supposed to be a family-friendly forum, so what's with all the mean-toned talking in this?
     I didn't mean to sound insensitive or sexist or anything of the sort. I know that one of them is 20, and haven't looked at the other one yet. I'm 16. They're the adults. Since teenagers aren't too well-informed (generally speaking) about pregnancy and abortion, but are much more informed about abstinence and the practice of safe sex, then they should be trying to better inform me or at least try to not sound so mean when correcting me on this topic. It's a very touchy topic, after all.
      Now, I might have presented some faulty wording in here as well, so if there was any, then I apologize. But overall, if they want a flame war, then it's on. I didn't want to start one, but apparently, I did, so I'm going to see it to the end.
      I would like to thank Phantom for informing me on the first person to start off this flame war. I'll be prepared the next time it starts up.

I broke my toe 2 days ago. It was on my left foot, second to last on the left side. It's purple in two places, so I'll be putting a bandage around it before I go to bed, along with one right next to it, to help it move and heal better.

Here's the poems that I posted on the Poetry thread:

Hugging Haiku
Hugs are always free
If you need one, just ask me
I'd be happy too

Emptiness
The sad little girl walked through the snow
Until she came by the ocean
There she saw a puddle
She gazed into it
And only saw the empty sky…

Play That Music Loud
My neighbor's in the street
Out in the cold with bare feet
Yelling about the stereo
Turn it down low
Is what he is preaching
But we are just not listening
We crank the volume up
The speaker's erupt
Music flows out onto the street
Warming up our neighbor's feet

And we start to dance
Just partying the night away
No thoughts, but that's okay
Just killing time anyway
And we start to move
Over from one house to the next
Partying wherever it is best
We just drink the night away
Twelve is enough but ten's okay
And we start to dance
And then we all fall down

Another Day
Another Church
Another plain
Another cloudy day
The soil soaks up the water poured upon itself
Catching the falling droplets
Except for the ones that have already been caught
Another day gone
Another hour mourned
Another red eye
Another mourning group gone
Silence now comes in from all angles
Long after the service
Another life taken
Another day only vaguely remembered

*I overuse the word 'another' in this, don't I?

Untitled
I'm taking shots at a bar
While the man beside me smokes a cigar
I ask for a hit
And I have to admit
I never gave it back
I'm an addict whose not addicted
To any substance restricted
My tastes are legal
The worst I can recall
Since they're available to all
The dark is my drug of choice
Silence is my favorite voice
Until the music comes on
A familiar song
I let it take over me

*I just wrote this like, 10 minutes ago, and plan to edit it and add more to it (like I want to with a good amount of my other poems). If you can't find a meaning in it, well, you're in good company, because it seems kind of vague, even to me.

Well, that's all I have to say for now.

-ghlewis

Updates

2008-07-29T05:03:34Z

Why is it that, even if I have stories to tell, I never care to type them out? What's the point of having a blog if you're too lazy to type a paragraph or two?

I've been on a diet since mid-July, and so far, I've lost almost 10 pounds. Yay me. I don't really do much with this diet, though. I just count calories, try not to eat as much, and do anywhere from 80-160 sit ups a day. I'm planning on starting on push ups soon, as well.

Since I've had this Eblaster cyber nanny on my computer, I haven't been able to download stuff that every adolescent male takes interest in. Luckily, the blocker of websites Trend Micro has failed to re-install, so now, even though I'm not downloading anything, really, I DO get to download the female body. Hurray for crashing computers and breasts! lol I really have nothing better to do anywa... oh shit. I need to keep up with my summer reading... fucking god damnit. I guess I'll continue with that tomor-, er, later this morning.
The book I'm reading is Huckleberry Finn. It's a pretty good book, in my opinion, but I can't wait to be done with it. I really, really want to continue with House of Leaves and the other books that I have.

I joined a site called The Final Fantasy Forums earlier this month, and I really like the forum so far. It's family-friendly, but it's an enjoyable forum, with many different topics and boards. Everyone is pretty friendly there, too. The MegaTokyo Forums, my old forums, which I'm still partially active on, aren't as friendly, but does have it's good sides. You can get a good laugh or two from it. Especially on the Joke threads. Since TFF is family-friendly, I have hesitated to post any obscene or off-color jokes (the heavy ones, anyway), but I plan to message a moderator and ask about their policies on the Joke threads. I haven't quite figured out the whole system for the rules on this one particular forum yet...

Well, that's all I got for now. Goodnight =)

-ghlewis

Random Thoughts...

2008-07-23T02:51:37Z

...I really wish I understood music theory more and knew how to put chords that sound alike together. I can't find any for the song I'd like to write. I'm starting to think that I really suck at guitar...

Does anyone out there know who Hunter S. Thompson is? It seems like only people on the internet know of him...

Anyone else besides me get up in the morning, and regret doing it?...

...why the fuck won't this goddamn chair lean back? It's fucking been locked since this morning. Goddamn computer troubles making me or someone else messing up this chair...

...I can't wait to get my new electric guitar...

...I should rewatch Kanon (2006)...

...I forgot what else I was gonna say...

-ghlewis

First Post in Two Weeks

2008-07-19T01:44:15Z

So, I haven't checked in for about two weeks, so I'll fill you in with my going's ons lately.

My mom put Eblaster (a real good cyber nanny) onto my dad's (which is also mine) computer for reasons you could probably figure out already, seeing how I'm a single teenage male. It works pretty well. It has a few quirks in it (like how 'streaming media/mp3' doesn't let me go to YouTube or download from a musician or two on Myspace, among other things. I'll get that fixed up sometime soon, though), but overall, it's keeping me... protected. I hate how it lets my parents read my e-mail and all of that, but overall, it's good. The best out there, anyway.

I went to Pennsylvania for around 4-5 days to visit some family. I've visited them before, and I really liked them, so it was pretty fun now. I got to visit with my cousin Albert and play with him on Rock Band, I cot to share music with my cousin Jennie and my other cousin... I forgot her name... I did some other stuff there, like talk with them, go to a festival, and the like, but overall, it was mainly socializing and playing video games, and watching Happy Gilmore. Albert's friend, who's name I also forgot, was pretty cool, as well. He also has AT&T on his cell. They both say that they couldn't sing well, but, because of how Rock Band does the singing part, you're basically singing a little worse than you would at karaoke. I tried, but overall, I could've done better. It was pretty fun to try singing on Rock Band though. Since I was the only one who was confident enough to do vocals, I did mainly that, while Albert and the other guy took control of the guitar and drums. I tried these out as well. They were pretty fun. Overall, it was a fun few days.

After watching another Italian Horror movie, I've come to realize that the Italians are no good at making Zombie movies. As you may or may not know, I'm a big fan of Underground Horror, Exploitation Films, and films that have been banned in other countries. Well, this has led me to Italian Horror (which was my first dive into the great world of Exploitation and Underground Horror). After watching Cannibal Holocaust and the like, I became accustomed to Italian Horror. But, after watching Zombie Holocaust and Zombi 2, I have learned that the Italians are no good at making those types of movies. They always take place somewhere in South America (which isn't a problem, but for Zombies, they could take place anywhere), and there always has to be a heavy storyline, along with a reason to why the Zombies appeared. Whether it's through Voodoo or Brain Transplants, there is always a reason for Zombies. Why can't they just pop out of nowhere, like in the George A. Romero movies? Oh well.

As for those horrible types of movies, I recently discovered someone else besides me that is interested in this stuff. I've had him on my Myspace, though haven't really talked to him until now. His music project is named Dark Asylum. He does some dark ambient music, and it's pretty good. Well, I asked him about whether his new album House of Tears is derived from the title of the book House of Leaves. It was, and, while we were messaging, on the second response from him, I asked him about whether or not we was into Exploitation and Underground flixs, because of the movies he talks about in his journal entries. He said yes, and we got to talking about them. We shared some titles and discussed them. And apparently, there are conventions for those types of movies. I hope to learn the names of some of them. I'm getting most of my Underground stuff from Netflix, though it doesn't have all of them, or the more underground or lesser known titles. I hope to find and buy these sometime. Since I probably won't be able to get my mom to buy them, because of the nature and subject of some of these titles (see Nekromantik and August Underground), I'll have to either wait until I get a job and start up a bank account, or wait until I'm 18. ...I just thought of that job thing. Too bad I won't be able to do it, since my parents will probably read this by around 4 tomorrow. Oh well. ...well, I don't know how to continue this paragraph, since I don't know where to lead it next, so let's move on, shall we?

...I have no idea what else to talk about now. Oh well. I'll probably find something else to say later on tonight or tomorrow. Until then, goodbye.

-ghlewis

Cosmo and Thoughts

2008-06-30T22:38:01Z

    So, last night, my internet went out, so I wasn't able to post. Here's the saved draft of what I typed up last night.

    Okay, here's something you might not have noticed. I saw a Cosmo magazine in the store today, advertizing that they had "Taboo Sex Suggestions that would turn your man on" and "What to say to your man in bed that he will love." ...now, I'm an expert on every type of sex act out there (not personally, though, but on the idea of them and info on them) (at least, before I learned about today Max Hardcore. seriously, don't look him up. I think he's done stuff that even I have not seen yet), and I can damn well tell you, Cosmo ain't gonna give you shit on Taboo. Oh what, is it gonna be something involving the anus? Yeah, seen it, know about it, it's such a BIG TABOO. Seriously, who are these people kidding?
    This is how I see it. Cosmo is a women's magazine, made by women, for women. So, how do they know about what guys want in bed? The truth is, they don't. They have ideas from the men they've been with, but unless they have some real sluts in that magazine company, they're not gonna be giving too much Taboo acts or even some of the more adventurous stuff.*
    Anyway, they're system just doesn't work, or at least, it shouldn't be taken to heart 100%. This is the system I came up with, that I think would work much better if a magazine that is directed to a particular gender is gonna give sex advice. There should be two magazines. One of them should be a magazine for guys, by girls, that will have sex articles telling them how to please their women, and the other magazine will be for girls, by guys, that will have sex articles telling them how to please their men. I believe that, with this system, there will be much more accuracy in the articles.*

*Keep in mind, I haven't checked out this issue (will look it up online later on tomorrow, though), so my arguements are biased at the moment, but you have to understand my not picking up the issue due to me being A GUY FOR CHRIST'S SAKE.

I've listened to all of my new 'Tech N9ne' album, along with half of my new 'System of a Down' album. They fucking rock! I'm addicted to "Chic N' Stu by SOAD". Fuck yeah!

I was able to fall asleep without any medication last night! Yay! I can fall asleep normally now, apparently! Well, hopefully I'll be able to tonight. ...naw, I'm sure I will.

ghlewis @ 2008-06-29T01:57:00

2008-06-29T06:20:11Z

I really don't get the whole 'Friends' portion of the profile on this site. There's a section for 'friends', and then there's a section for 'mutual friends'. ...so, how do you define a 'friend' and a 'mutual friend'? How do you recategorize them when someone upgrades from a mutual friend to a full friend? Someone needs to explain this to me.

I'm going to try to go to bed without any medication tonight. If I just stop having caffeine and sugar around... maybe 3 hours before I go to bed (?), then maybe it will be easier to fall asleep. I don't really see why you can't just get the mind to stop working and just go into sleep mode when you're ready to go to sleep. Can't it just work with it's sorting of thoughts and such in a quieter manner, back in your subconscious? I really hate how it keeps on working and racing when all I want to do is go to bed and sleep. Fucking insomnia. Oh well, maybe I'll be able to beat it. ...I guess I'm talking about this too much. I keep on rambling about it. I think I'll keep my hateful words about it in the community whatdoyouhate, and just keep the updates on it here. Yeah, that sounds good.

I'm going on a diet tomorrow, and might start going back to the gym, since I love using the weights they have, along with the ellipticals and treadmill. If any of you don't really go to the gym and are thinking about going sometime soon, remember this: never get on the treadmill as your first exercise. Your shins will thank me for this. Use something like the ellipticals first. My friend, Matt, says that I won't lose any weight during the summer. I guess he's gonna lose that bet. ...damn, I should've done a money bet. I could've made some money.

...damn, I forgot to call Barnes & Noble today. ...I think I'll have some time tomorrow. Yeah, I'll call them either after Mass or right before. Damn Mass making me wake up early when I have insomnia. Can't the Lord take one Sunday off? On the day that the Bible says he took off, we all gather to worship Him, praise Him, and pray to Him. I really don't think he's very appreciative of us for doing that.

    I bought two new albums today while out shopping with my mom (that my dad doesn't know about. thankfully, my mom is very more lenient when it comes to explicit lyrics and such. she knows that I'm not influenced by music or anything of the sort. I'm 16 going on 17 for Christ's sake). I got "Anghellic: Reparation by Tech N9ne" and "Steal This Album! by System of a Down". Both are Parental Advisory, but one of them is a political band, and the other is Hip Hop, so what would you expect?
    It's funny, my dad actually thought that, if the band said Fuck even once on their album, that it would automatically be Parental Advisory. He actually thought that the band Bright Eyes was Parental Advisory. ...seriously, what the fuck? I mean, who the fuck is really that stupid? He won't even tell me why I can't buy them. It's because they are using bad language and saying all of this bad stuff, he says. Well tell me, what exactly does that mean? Is it going to affect me in any way? Will I become brainwashed by the music? Will I start believing in what the music is telling me and act upon it because it is Parental Advisory? He says that once I have a taste of it, I'll want more. Well, of course! If the music is good, it's only obvious that I would want more!
    He's such a fucking hypocrite. He listens to Parental Advisory music (a little bit, anyway), and so far, it hasn't affected him in any way, and, since he seems to listen to it when I'm not around, he must want some more albums or something. This is because the music is appealing to him. It's not the bad lyrics that draw us teens. It's the music, how the lyrics go with the music, and how the lyrics flow and mix together.
    I'm really glad my mom understands this. I could go onto a rant about how bad of a parent my dad is, but it's getting late. All I'll tell you for now is he was very abusive back in the day when I wasn't born yet, but my half-brother and sister were. I don't even know the entire story, but I know enough and have some ideas of my own about the blanks left in. I'll just leave it at that for now.

Well, it's getting late. I'm gonna shove off to bed now and see if I can fall asleep in under half and hour like a normal person would.

-ghlewis

Blogging Session Ended @ 12:25am

2008-06-28T04:26:01Z

Well, I took two Benadryl last night around 4 something in the morning, and I went out, thank God. I'll be needing to take two more tonight a little early (like right about now) because my cousin Nicole's son's birthday is tomorrow and they're having a party at 11:30 in the morning. I don't know how old he'll be, but he's still a little kid, so it shouldn't be that hard to get him a present. My dad will probably buy the gift and I'll just cosign the card. Yeah, that's what I'll do.

I woke up at 12 today. I think I either woke up at 7, 9, or at both times in the morning, and just fell back to sleep. My alarm woke me up. Whenever I decide to use an alarm during the summer, I just use my iHome and just set my iPod to some song that I like. I usually choose "A Place With Heart" on the "Legend of Mana Music Selection" album I put onto it. I put it on repeat. It's only 1:33, but it's still a nice song. Sounds like a good song to wake up to, and even sounds like a good alarm tune as well. Only for the summer, though, since the sound of it isn't at as good a frequency as those high-pitched tunes on most alarm clocks. I have a Final Fantasy XI alarm clock with the tunes of the four kingdoms, and those are the ones that I would rather wake up to when I have a job, or need to go to school. Then again, whenever I set an alarm, I always wake up before it somehow, but that's beside the point.

I deleted some save files on my two PS1 memory cards. They only contained Final Fantasy VIII saves. I've been wanting to play it for a few weeks now, so I looked at the times on each of them, and carefully chose which ones to delete. I can't believe that in the game I actually let myself play it for 3 hours at a time in-between saving. The maximum for Final Fantasy X right now is around 2 hours for me. The most that have actually been saved though have been around one and a half hours. Back on track, I've played about an hour more of Final Fantasy VIII. I'm so happy that I'll finally be finishing the game. It's my favorite one. I know the ending already, but it doesn't spoil the fun for me, although I do with my brother Arlan wouldn't spoil so many endings of stuff. I need to tell him to stop doing that again. I think it's become a habit for Arlan. Oh well, that's another topic for another time.

Well, I'm gonna shove off. I want to get a decent amount of sleep tonight, and I can't do it with an alarm clock unless I actually get to bed early enough. ...actually, I think just the thought of a forced awakening is probably enough to leave me sleepy throughout the first few hours of the day. They need to make a better way to wake someone up other than alarm clocks. The only problem is, what else could we possibly use or even make? ...oops, I'm rambling. I need to get to bed. Goodnight, everyone.

-ghlewis

Blogging Session Ended @ 3:28am

2008-06-27T07:28:37Z

Well, last night I was able to take that second Benadryl. Fell asleep real quick.I was happy about that. I really, really hate my wandering mind and insomnia. They are the worst combination of sleep deprivation.

http://youtube.com/davidmeshow

Came across him while looking up something on YouTube. Can't remember what, but I found him in the process. Check out his "Best Guitar Improvisation" along with some of his songs with lyrics. Sure, it's in French, but it sounds so good! He is now among my favorite musicians. I don't care that he's not signed to anyone or anything. He has a free album out of download. I think I'll download it tomorrow.

I've known for a while that I need a lot of sleep if I'm gonna wake up rested, but when I woke up after 7-8 hours of sleeping last night, when I went to get out of bed, I felt so tired. What the fuck? The recommended amount of sleep seems to be no good for me. I guess I need to train my body some more for the whole sleep thing. Maybe if I start going to bed earlier than anywhere from 2-4 something, maybe I can do better with my mornings. ...hell if that happens. If I want to even be in bed by midnight, I can guarantee you that I'll need to OD on Benadryl in order to obtain that goal. Maybe I can find something with a stronger and increased amount of whatever Benadryl has in it. Does anybody have any suggestions?

I haven't read any of my book "House of Leaves" in a while. I might start back on it tomorrow. That reminds me, I need to start on my summer reading. I've chosen the book "The Kitchen God's Wife" by... Amy Tan, I think it was? If I can't get into it after 30-50 pages, I'm gonna switch on over to "The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn". "The Kitchen God's Wife" seems a lot more interesting, though.

Fuck, I need to practice for my guitar lessons on Saturday. I've blown it off quite a bit this week. ...oh well. These things somehow work to my advantage in the end, somehow. I'm able to slip on by, thank God.

My room is finally clean and almost all the way organized! Yay! And I've kept it clean for about 2 days now. Once 2 weeks pass by, I'll have beaten my old record of how long I can keep my room clean. I hope to keep it dusted and everything for as long as I can. It's very nice, having a clean room.

On either Friday or Saturday, I'm gonna call Barnes & Noble to see if they went over my application yet. It'll be the first job I do that with. I think I want that job the most as my first job. Maybe, if I can get a grip on school next year, I can change up my days and hours, and see if I can keep it throughout the school year. That would be something, won't it?

I either need to focus more on the hobbies I already have (writing, sketching, practicing guitar, video games, reading, etc.) or learn to somehow conquer boredom another way while I'm home alone. Having a job would really help it out. Internet pornography is really taking up my time in the mornings (or early afternoons, since I wake up around noon, anyway). Damn mornings and the stuff they do to the male body. It doesn't make it better, either, that I'm also a Scorpio (if any of you know about astrology, you'd know what I'm talking about there), and also, at the same time, in my mid-teen years. Damn you, Bill Gates. You had to take a perfectly innocent Swedish invention for sending information, and turn it into something that is now used for devious acts. Fucking smart people.

I can't find my cellphone. My mom gave me a new one with fifteen minutes on it (AT&T Go-phone. They work pretty well), and I can't find it. All I need is a local number put on it, and I'd be ready to go. I really hope it doesn't turn out like my television remote did. I can't find that damn thing, and now my television in my room won't stop displaying captions. The only way to work those things is to use the remote. I really, really hope I find that cellphone.

I've watched too many scary movies. Whenever I'm home alone, whenever I'm going through intersection hallways or in a room alone (usually with a cracked or open door, aka the computer room), I can't help but think there will be this scary humanoid-form in the dark recesses of this house. I know it's just paranoia, and probably nothing, but I can't help it. My imagination runs way too wild. It's really fucking annoying. I really wish there was something. That way, I could kill it with a blunt object and be over with it. I would no longer have to be afraid.

I've been having dreams lately. I go through periods where I can't remember my dreams, and I go through periods where I do remember my dreams (since the mind goes through and sorts the information you took in during the day, you go through REM cycles. With these cycles, you dream. You usually dream about 4-5 times a night. The only reason you wouldn't think you dreamed, though, is because you don't remember them. You really do dream every night. You can't say you didn't dream). I'm going through a dreaming period. I can't remember every detail of last night's dream, but I do remember it had my ex, some really weird and downright strange breasts (probably brought on by some sort of Alternative Hentai pic I viewed last night, though it didn't seem like anything of the sort except there were 8 on her), and the setting was... some sort of camp? I don't know. All I really remember is that it was really weird. I'll just end it at that.

My dad should be coming home tomorrow afternoon (or this afternoon, seeing as how it's early morning). Fuck. I was enjoying my alone time, too. Although my mom did come over every day for an hour or two, and I went over to her place twice in the past four days, I was alone in my own house, nonetheless.
I think I could get a lot more accomplished if I lived alone. For one thing, it's pretty much your domain. You can do whatever you want with your domain, and if you want to walk around or lounge in just boxers, then so be it. No one is barging in on you when you are trying to either relax or work. There are just so many reasons why living alone can help a person be so much more productive, that I can't list them all. Now, I'm not saying working with a group isn't fun or helpful, I'm saying for stuff like summer reading or homework (for the most part, anyway), it's a lot easier if you are just alone. I know this little thing is not true for everyone, but it is true for me. I'm not a loner, but when I want some alone time, I want to be alone, without any people around me. They just seem to either get in the way, or make you lose your stream of thoughts or concentration. At least, that's what happens with me.

Well, it's starting to get late. I'm gonna retire for the night. Maybe I'll try to sleep without taking any medication tonight... Well, goodnight folks. Have a pleasant tomor- er, day.

-ghlewis

From 2:16am to 3:26am

2008-06-26T07:27:18Z

Since I've been waking up so late, it seems that I can't get to sleep until probably anywhere from 4 to 7 in the morning. I've just been popping Benadryl to make myself fall asleep. My dad doesn't like the fact that I do that because I take Singulair, which has a certain chemical that Benadryl also has, meaning it's pretty much OD, but I don't care. I've been taking it my whole life. I used to take it a lot in Texas for my allergies, so my body is pretty used to it. I would sometimes take it to fall asleep, but I started taking it for that reason recently, and so far, 2 pills have worked the best, though 1 is fine too (doesn't work as well, though).
    For some reason, when I try to fall asleep, even though I am a little tired, my thoughts keep on racing and popping up at random, or a stream of interconnected thoughts keep going through my head, and I can't get them to stop. It's fucking annoying. I hate how I'm getting Insomnia during the summer.
    My brother says that this is just genetic, since, apparently, it happens with mom, him, etc. I'm not sure if I believe him, since it seems that a lot of my family members can sleep just fine. Although, I guess each person, even if they are from the same bloodline, is different, I guess.
    I was thinking of getting these Unisom sleep melts advertised on television to help put me to sleep, but my mom says that the stuff in them is pretty much the same stuff that's in the Benadryl that I'm taking. At least they are not in pill form. Tonight, I had trouble swallowing the second pill. For some reason, I just couldn't even get it to the back of my throat, which really sucked. Oh well. At least I got the first one down. I'll just wait for it to kick in by blogging. Thank God for the internet, huh?

    There was a little scare at my mom's last time I was over there. Remember how my air conditioner broke? Well, I took some things to moms in order to stay the night, and when we pulled up, there were these 3 gangsta' looking black people trying to look into her apartment, despite a toddler looking out the window right at them. Well, she walked up to them asking what they were doing. They said that a person they knew used to live here. She explained that she and my sister and her kids now lived there. Well, I walked inside and talked a little with my sister while we were looking outside, watching mom talk to these gang members (they really were).
    Just to give a little background info on my mom, she's a teacher who specializes in teaching the kids that give the school the most trouble or just the plain bad kids. She can get along with them pretty well, and even help them learn what they couldn't in other classes. She's just now certified for teaching Special Ed classes. The school she is now going to teach at is full of thugs, and she's probably ready for them. She used to teach in Texas. First, while teaching there, there was a good amount of white kids, since we lived in a small community, or town. Then, while I was living here in Virginia (were both of us are now), she was in Baytown. There was a majority of Mexicans there. She had, in Jr. High, members of the M16s (or whatever they were called) saying that they had her back.
    Anyway, me and my sister were worried, but apparently, they both seemed to understand each other (my mom and the thugs, that is). I'm too lazy to type up what they were talking about, but I may sometime by the end of the week.

Hey, I'm starting to get a little tired. Yay.

    I guess at least 1 month ago, I borrowed Final Fantasy X from my brother, since the disc I had from a few years ago was all scratched up (didn't think of keeping care of my discs as much as I do now). Well, after I beat Assassin's Creed, I began playing Okami. After a while, I began to play Final Fantasy X as well. I haven't played Okami in about a week, since I've been spending a lot of time on Final Fantasy X. I'm already over 11 hours into it.
    The last time I played it, I got to the Thunder Plains in one play-through (I played it straight through over 11 hours in one sitting). I'm taking more time this time around, as to get some of the extra goodies in the game. Playing for over 11 hours in one sitting is my 2nd longest time. The one that takes 1st place is an undetermined amount of time on Final Fantasy VIII (my favorite game). I don't quite remember how long it took, though it might have been anywhere from 12 hours or 13 hours and up. Third place goes to Final Fantasy VII with a little over 10 hours, and in fourth place, Devil May Cry 3 with over 8 hours (beat it, too).

Hmm, apparently, the Benadryl isn't doing what it's supposed to do. Maybe I'm supposed to go to bed and try to fall asleep in order for it to work? Maybe I should try taking a second one again...

...I can't think of anything else to blog about right now. I guess I'll just check out a few sites and maybe download some stuff for a while, then go off to bed.

Legends Far Gone, among Other Things

2008-06-23T23:35:21Z

...2008 is the worst goddamn year of time itself. The world really is ending. So many great people of our time are leaving us this year. The greats of the 20th and 21st century. First Charlton Heston, then Tim Russert, and now, just early this morning, 6pm Pacific time on June 22, 2008, George Carlin has died....what the fuck!? These people are part of the greats! They're legends! Why is it that, in the first half of the year 2008, we have already had 3 legends die on us? It's fucked up! This really is the end of the world, goddamnit...

I woke up this morning at around 11:13 this morning. It was so goddamn hot. Outside it was around... 80-something? Inside, it was 78 according to the ac controls and display mounted on the wall. I took a shower, got dressed, and waited for mom to come over. She helped me clean up my room and get it organized. It's almost clean. While we were cleaning, the temperature kept rising. It got up by 4 to 81 degrees. I wasn't completely finished with my room, but I was close and getting there. Since my mom couldn't take the heat, I took a very cold shower to cool me off, gathered up some of my things, got some food and such, and took them over to my mom's, where I'll be staying tonight. I'm having pizza and root beer for dinner.

I'm being a little lazy tonight, so I'm not gonna tell some of the stories I have at the moment, but I will post them later. Either later on tonight or tomorrow.

-ghlewis

Two Weeks Gone By

2008-06-19T02:19:52Z

And I've been enjoying them, overall.

I've finally beaten Assassin's Creed. I've was some of it to get some of the achievements that I failed to get beforehand, but I've basically now stopped playing it. I've started playing Okami for the Wii, and, even though the calligraphy for different brush techniques could be a little easier or have a little more leniency, it's a great game. I will be continuing Final Fantasy X sometime later on this week (did about 1-2 hours of it and want to continue and get passed where I was in the past).

My mom moved back to Texas. Since I haven't really told her anything in a while*, it was a little awkward talking with her again and being around her. That, and the fact that I haven't seen her in over a year. Because my grades haven't been As and Bs like they were throughout Elementary and Junior High, and since I've gotten Detentions the past two years (never did before), I now have a dictator that's going to shape me and make be get good grades and have no disciplinary problems anymore and one that's going to get to know my teachers and talk with them real well. Yay. Her plan to shape me up is too long, so I'm going to refrain from posting it or post it another time.

*Because I failed the Learner's Permit Test twice (passed it the third time), this rumor was going around my family that I was afraid to learn to drive. Bullshit. I just didn't bother to pick up the learner's booklet and read it beforehand. This did not register with any of them. Even though I wasn't able to do anything about it, I was able to do something to prevent any other fucking bullshit rumors going around the family. They can't think up their crazy thoughts if I just refrain from telling anyone anything. Since my mom called everyday when she was in Texas, I just told her nothing happened that day and some other bullshit. I figured, "why tell her stuff that is unnecessary?" and went with it. I don't really talk on a daily basis or even tell my other family members about my day, so I only really needed to keep stuff from her. With the others, I couldn't help how dad would tell them stuff. One thing that he would do was... fuck it. I'm not going to tell about this. It's too fucking embarrassing.

    I've applied for 2 jobs now at f.y.e. and Regal Cinema. I'll be applying later for Borders, Barnes & Noble, and Quiznos. I can't find out how to get to the job applications for just doing the food or register on their website, I've found it for Borders yet haven't done it yet, and I need to go to the Barnes & Noble bookstore to pick one up. I'm going to try to work into the school year with the job I get. For f.y.e., I put down that all the days I will be able to work are all of them except for Sunday.
    ...I'm a gigantic idiot. What the fuck? I think I was just pissed at my dad because when I asked him about it, told him he and mom can work out a plan to drive me, and... I don't even know what I'm saying anymore, just disregard what I just said. Anyway, I got pissed at him when he kept suggesting that I take two days off and what days to take off that I just said, "Dad, I'll choose whatever day I want!" and decided to go with one day off instead of two. ...why didn't I pick Monday to take off!? That way, I can work on the days he's home! Fuck! I wanted a job for three reasons: to get some experience, to get an income, and to get out of this goddamn house away from this goddamn bad parent. Seriously, he is a bad parent. I can see why our entire family is screwed up. Well, that's a completely different story and goes beyond bad parent, but overall, he just doesn't know how to handle kids once they are able to think for themselves. He's a control freak, is what I'm trying to say.
    ...whoops. Went on a ramble there, folks. Sorry about that. Anyway, I can't wait to start working and get my first paycheck. I desperately need another PS1 memory card so I can finish Final Fantasy VIII.

~Updates~

2008-06-03T02:23:01Z

Huh, been a whole week since I've posted here. Well, I don't got too much to tell, but I'll tell what I have.

So, we had this tag day where we had to buy a ticket the previous week in order to do tag and get a free hotdog, chips, and soda for lunch on the field in a picnic-type setting. Well, I thought you could buy them that day, since I forgot to buy them the previous week. Well, apparently, you couldn't, so when I went up to get a tag with some others from the library, there were these people here to give tickets to those who bought one. Well, I found out that they signed names in order to see who all had a ticket. It came time for me to get mine, and as they checked for my name, they said, "Well, I'm sure you bought one." After a second, they said, "You bought a ticket, right? You know, just go ahead and take one." I didn't even have to pay the dollar. I got off easy.

I decided to post my poem Mistakes on these forums I go to regularly for criticism, and was given some harsh criticism and some okay criticism. I took the help, and composed a new poem with more imagery, that's more on-topic, and tried to make it less boring. This was the outcome:

Another Church
Another plain
Another cloudy day
The soil soaks up the water poured upon it
Catching the falling droplets
Except for the ones that have already been caught
Another day gone
Another hour mourned
Another red eye
Another mourning group gone
Silence now comes in from all angles
Long after the service
Another life taken
Another day only vaguely remembered

I think I did better on this one. I received some criticism saying that I overused the word "another" and that I still need to work on my imagery since the best one probably was "Silence now comes in from all angles," but overall, I think I did much better.

lol, this made me laugh. I'm a big fan of Penny-Arcade, and there are so many good comics on that site, but their latest one is just flat-out hilarious:

http://www.penny-arcade.com/comic/2008/6/02/

Check it out.

Just Some Poetry...

2008-05-25T03:13:34Z

I decided to post some of my poetry that I've spammed... er, posted on other sites. These are the ones that I think I did the best jobs on. Enjoy:

*My best or favorites

*Hugging Haiku
Hugs are always free
If you need one, just ask me
I'd be happy too

*Emptiness
The sad little girl walked through the snow
Until she came by the ocean
There she saw a puddle
She gazed into it
And only saw the empty sky…

*Helplessness
A little boy
walks across the sky
only to look down
and see there is nothing
To hold him up...

*Decay
I try to make it through the day
People riding me along the way
My mind slowly but surely begins to decay
Until I start to feel nothing everyday
I don't know how I made it today
Playing fool and acting in all the wrong ways
At least I am nice, but that won't get me too far
God, I wish I could enter a bar
Just pass out and forget
About all these wasted years that I've spent
On this unforgiving planet
With no security blanket
To keep me company
And keep me safe

The Usual Routine
Shadows reflecting the emptiness of light
The sun is shining, but gives off no warmth
Everything seems so dull
Colors, people, and things
All of this time, though, I think
This is all I really need
I get no joy out of the usual routine
Nothing seems to satisfy my wants and needs
I get out of bed
Wanting this day to end
But I guess I can't move time forward

*Drifting
Wandering around with nowhere to go
Wandering around with nothing to see
I guess it just goes to show
There is nowhere that I want to be
Burning a cigarette on a cool afternoon
Standing around with nothing to do
Watching all the people passing by
Glancing at the vast, beautiful, cloudy sky
It looks so lonely up there
All alone
It seems like the clouds, they got no home
They keep on moving from place to place
I guess they just want some space
I wish I was a bird so I could fly up high
High up and above the sky
And get away from it all
Because you can stand ten feet tall
But it won't help you from feeling so small

*Mistakes (maybe unfinished)
Everyone makes mistakes every single day
It’s just human nature, it’s just our way
People just accept it and say it’s okay
Yeah, people just accept it and say it’s all okay
But some drown in it, some beat themselves up
Let it get to them until they just quit and erupt
Hide behind fake smiles so no one complains
Keep people from asking; keeping me from becoming insane
I don’t have my word, I don’t have my friends
I brake promises and every chance that I get I sin
I don’t have my health or a clean mind
I'm in need of distractions to help me unwind
It’s all about who, what, where, how, and when
So when you can’t recall one, it will never end
I've tried to capture moments on photographs
But they just depress me instead of making me laugh
I open the door, another road
I have seen it all and now I’m bored
I’ve tried to start over again and again
But this life is hard and I’m finding I can never win

Proposal
Did you expect it?
The shimmer of light reflected
On such a starry night
The moon so full tonight
They shine so bright
Together
Like we will be forever
Yeah, Just utter those magical words "I do"
So we can get married soon
Now
Yeah
So we can get married soon
Yeah
Just say "I do"
So I can marry you

*Play That Music Loud
My neighbor's in the street
Out in the cold with bare feet
Yelling about the stereo
Turn it down low
Is what he is preaching
But we are just not listening
We crank the volume up
The speaker's erupt
Music flows out onto the street
Warming up our neighbor's feet

And we start to dance
Just partying the night away
No thoughts, but that's okay
Just killing time anyway
And we start to move
Over from one house to the next
Partying wherever it is best
We just drink the night away
Twelve is enough but ten's okay
And we start to dance
And then we all fall down

*Let's Go (unfinished)
Let's go
Let's go
Let's go
Down to a place I know in Mexico
Where the skies are always blue
I would like to spend the day with you
Walking along the shorelines
Seeing time fly by
Try to catch it in our hands
Feeling it slip through between our fingers
Like sand
Watching the sunset on the beach
Laying in the sand holding hands

*Depression
Everything you took pleasure in now is dead
From playing guitar to messing around with friends
Alone at home by yourself
Secluded from everyone else
(Yeah, that's me)
I'm sorry for the phone calls made
I just wanted to talk
I know it's the holidays
But lately I've just wanted to drive something through my heart
I've started starving myself
I hope I can keep it up
Trying for a better self-image
Though knowing me it will probably bring it down
I can't concentrate on anything
Even things I enjoy
I try to apply myself
But it just never works out

Crows
I am standing near a grave pit
There's a shovel in my hand
I have been thinking the same thought
Over and over again
Will I be digging my own grave tonight?
Some crows come out in flight
As I stare at the sight

Freestyle Poetry
Painful memories flowing through my head
I haven't been able to sleep in this bed
I leave the television on throughout the night
I try to lose sight
Of all the painful memories spread upon the floor
They are piled stories high and lead out through the door
What's said is done and what's done is said
Oh God, please kill me, I wish I was dead
Just put me out of my misery
Because it's all just the same old thing
Day be day it's all the exact same routine
A box of failures delivered to me
Personally
I just want to sleep the rest of day's away
Because at least then I feel nothing and that's completely okay
At least to me
Another failure that I cannot take back
Another day that I wished I had just stayed in the sack
where I don't ever have to face anything
Like the fact that I can never finish anything

*~Working Title~
People walking past you along the way
Watching people walk into the streets- astray
Behaving differently saying everything's okay
Girl, I think you're being led the wrong way
Lethargic, apathetic, what do these words mean
Nothing is always everything that it seems
Always trying to be what they want you to be
If only now you could finally see
There’s no such thing as being yourself
When you're trying to impress everyone else
People looking down at you all along the way
Slowly but surely being led astray
A lonely life of solitude
When you get so low that you have nothing to do
You look into the mirror seeing there is no face
And there is no color, no particular race
Can't even recognize who you are
Maybe you are now just a single shooting star
There’s no such thing as being yourself
When you're trying to impress everyone else

A Teenage Love Poem
I'm not everything you want
I'm not everything you need
But God knows I try
I make a few jokes
To turn your frown
Upside down
You smile again

I want to hold you in my arms tonight
And I never want to let go
I love you more than you will ever know
So let's just take it real slow
Make it last as long as we can

What Love Is
I'm waiting for a phone call from you
I want to hear your voice
And tell you
I love you
And that I can't imagine what you are going through
But I will always be there for you
If you need a shoulder to cry on
Just give me a call
If you need to hold onto someone
My arms are open
And if you need someone to talk to
I'll be right here listening
And if you need some laughter in your life
I will try to make you laugh
Just let me try
Because that is love

Distance
I felt a distance between us
As you got onto that bus
And it drove away
Into that blackened storm
I couldn't feel your heartbeat
As I laid alone in my dorm
I feel a distance between us
Even though we are so close right now
With my arm around you
I feel so blue
I just want to be with you
I want to be near you
I want to hold you
And kiss you
And touch you
But I fear I will never get the chance
Ever again
I felt a distance between us
As you walked away

And Everything Goes Away
Well, I'm on the telephone
Trying not to cry
I just cannot seem to get by
I lie in bed all day
I can't think of a reason
To get out of bed
There's no reason that I should
I can be replaced
I am lost
I need directions
Could someone please tell me
Where happiness is?
These pills are not working
I can still feel the pain
If I took some more
Would it all go away?

Would it all go away?

Damages
Waiting for a picture perfect moment
Where I'm better off than dead
Lying on the floor asleep
Messed up in the head
Lying in my bed
Next to the fantasized woman
Who's always in my brain
I realize through this hallucination
I never had anything to gain
Always writing when I have
More important things to do
Distractions that cause more damages
Than good for me or you

*Little White Lies
When you talk to me
When you smile at me
I know what you're really thinking
When you buy me stuff
Needles and handcuffs
I know what you're really masking
When you say to me
That you know me
You know what I really see
You think you know everything
About me
You can see past my
Little white lies
I guess you can see right through me
When you ask me
How I'm feeling
I'm able to mask my frown
But you probably see
At least partially
The very true, real me
You know me well
Oh yeah, so well
Why don't you just say it right now
I wish you'd just say it to me
How you know how much I hate
You

Nice, Relaxing Day

2008-05-16T02:30:10Z

So, today, we were supposed to go to school in Forum* (in a nice buttoned-down collared shirt with slacks and dress shoes) because we had an NHS (National Honor Society) ceremony thingy going on. Well, the only dress shoes I have are 10.5, and I wear 11.5, going on 12, and because of the last time I wore those shoes to school (only about one or two weeks ago), I stayed at home. I got all of my homework done by noon, watched an episode of Spice and Wolf, masturbated, and read some more of the book House of Leaves.

*Forum, at my school (a Catholic school) is where, instead of wearing a polo shirt with the emblem on it tucked into khakis, we wear nicer clothes.

When my dad got home, we went to the mall to pick up some more dress shoes for me. I got a pair that were 12s, so they should last me. I also traded in some old games at GameStop. I must've had some money on my card still from the last time because I now had 91 dollars on that sucker. I got Assassin's Creed with the Strategy Guide (a game like that has to have a lot of easter eggs and secrets in it, right?) and the 5th Anniversary Box Set of Devil May Cry with the first 3 games. Now, I had numbers 1 and 3, but number 1 was all scratched up, and I never had the covering for it since I got it from a friend, and number 3 was just a disk, because... well, I guess my sister, while packing for a move with my mom while they were in Texas, couldn't save the covering. I never owned or played number 2. Now, I can get through the entire game of DMC1, and finally play DMC2. Yay.

All in all, it was an okay day. I got to watch the season finale of My Name is Earl and The Office. Wow, those were good episodes.

Writer's Block: Three dishes I could live on

2008-05-16T02:20:34Z

Hmmm... I guess it would have to be General Tso's Chicken, Chicken Quesadillas, and... umm... I guess the last one would be... I forgot. Ah hell, I'll remember it sooner or later.

Peace.

-ghlewis

Open Up, Police! (Part 2) and Clannad

2008-05-09T02:49:38Z

So, what I was saying about the police incident was that there was a domestic abuse thingy going on. It apparently was the girlfriend or the wife of the man. She came home and said that she was pregnant. He hits her in the stomach. The police arrive. I do not know what happened after that, but I do know that either later that night, the next day, or couple of days after, I forgot if I saw it or not (I think I did, though), there were these guys carrying out duffle bags from the home, and into their vehicles. Apparently, there were guns in the duffle bag that were confiscated. I think there were some automatics or semis or something. It was crazy.

I finished episode 9 of the anime Clannad. Now, with some of the episodes of Kanon 2006, I did cry. With Air, I didn't really cry, but felt like, with a little push, I could. With Clannad, I did let out some tears, but didn't fully cry. I really hate how well Key makes their anime. I hope to one day buy the visual novels that they make, and hopefully, if I can't find an English patch for it online, I can read Japanese by that time. Kanon 2006 is my favorite of all three, even though I love all of them. They can be funny, emotional, and really sad at times. The story line is deep, the characters are designed so perfectly in the way they are and how they progress. I really want to meet the people that create these games. I really want to meet the people of Key.

Lessee... not much else I want to get into. At least at the moment. It's getting late, and I don't really feel like blogging right now.

Good Night. I hope your day tomorrow is filled with peace and serenity.

-ghlewis

Late...

2008-05-08T02:27:50Z

Sorry I haven't posted about the police thing. I will tomorrow, since I now know information that was previously unknown and was one hell of a lot more interesting once added on to the whole thing. So instead of posting about that, I'm going to spend my last half-hour of awake-time watching episode 2 of Clannad before bed. Good night.

-ghlewis

Open Up, Police!

2008-05-05T01:09:51Z

So, a little after I viewed the last episode of Season 5 of The Sopranos, my dad noticed some police vehicles parked at this house in our neighborhood, in this circle that we live next to.

Well, for a while now, him, me, and our neighbor have been suspecting there is some drug activity going on at that house. There are vehicles going in and out of there at certain hours of the evening and mostly night. Sometimes, there will be two cars just sitting, and one will drive away, and after a few seconds, the other will begin to follow, and all of this other stuff. They think they are so sneaky, but it's pretty damn obvious. Well, there were 3 to 4 marked police videos in front of the house.

Since my dad and I do not know too much about these operations and such, we called my Uncle Chris who is a police officer for a nearby city (even though he lives in the same city as us, he works in a different city) on the Vice Squad, and a well-respected officer of the law. Well, he told us about what it would be like if they were doing a raid and such, and we told him about what we saw. He said that it was more than likely that it was about a Domestic Disturbance thing. He said it might be something different, though, with the whole different district than he works in going here, but he said that that's probably what they were called down for. It might have been caused by drugs, though. Who knows.

Pretty interesting. I've seen police do their work before, but have never witnessed it near where I live before. I don't live in the best of cities, but still. The only thing that's really been going on around this part of town and in my neighborhood are people speeding along the roads. That's pretty much it.

I wonder if the police will find out about any drug stuff while they do their whole thing over there.

A Fun Little Java Game

2008-05-04T22:48:58Z

http://www.eigelb.at/HP/Links/SpecialEffects/Grappa/GrappaWH_White/

Just use your mouse. Click and hold the left button on your mouse to create, and press the right button on your mouse to erase the picture. Have fun!

More News ~Update~

2008-05-04T01:43:46Z

Got back from guitar lessons a few hours ago. I was completely out of it today. I have no idea why. It seems like after we go over some of the stuff on triads that we are discussing (531- 64, B major 6, C ##, etc.), I start to just go out of it. I'm going to be studying and practicing a whole lot this week in order to get a grip on this stuff so I can move on, and hopefully learn more about connecting these chords and and more on chord progression and other ways to use triads. It's really every interesting, it's just a little difficult. I'll get the hang of it, though.

I've been noticing this for a while now. Every one of my teachers, in and out of school, have told me a number of things. A few of them are that I am sharp, smart, or have potential. For guitar, I believe that I do, and just need to go over my notes and try harder. As for school, not so much. You see, after my parents divorced, I moved to Texas with my mom. I went to public school there. I got As and Bs. I moved back in with my dad farther up north to a Catholic school, grades went to Cs and below (this started Freshman year. the year I moved in with my dad). Now, according to statistics, Texas has a low educational standard or something like that. Maybe it's just the state I'm in and the fact that I was used to the way public school was. 7 straight classes throughout the entire year, minimum homework, though, at times, had to stay up late, didn't really have to study too much. Here in Catholic school, 4 classes per semester, a lot of homework or, if not a lot, just hard homework, much faster pace. Now, the homework isn't really that much I guess. On good nights, 2-3 hours. With projects and such, it can get up to 4 hours. Now, I am a slacker. I didn't really need to study too much to get at least a C in public school. Because of this study method of mine, I didn't really do too well my Freshman year. Sophomore year, not that great, but certainly better than last year. Now, you might say that I'm just being lazy or just need to crack the books more, but let me tell you something, if I really had potential, if I really were smart, I would crack open a book right now instead of blogging here on LiveJournal. I could be opening my Biology book and doing some homework or working on the project for World History that I always turn in late. If I really were smart, I'd smack myself in the face for not getting my priorities in order and not even trying.

Iron Man. Go see it. It's nothing like a comic book except for the whole robotic suit thing. I'm seriously not kidding. I went and saw the movie, you could only tell you were watching a comic book movie only when you got a lot further into the movie. It's gripping, the characters are great, the ideas, everything about the movie was superb. I highly recommend you go see it. It has a great storyline and everything. Go see it. Now.
I know, not that great of a review, but still, the theater was damn near full when I went, so that means that it has to be getting some good ratings, and that amounts to something, right? It's a really good movie with action, good characters, comedy, and the like. Why not go check it out?

Umm... I can't remember what else I was gonna say, er, type. I guess this is it. Yeah, have a good night. I might post something later, but I doubt it. Goodnight =)

-ghlewis